Its done

Just a short post to let you all know that I've done it.....

Things came to a head, I had to get out, so I packed up my life and my children and we are now camping at Mum's until we sort things out....

We are all ok, very tired but ok....

Oh what a day!

Today we had 'the' court appearance. (D)ExP - and I can assure you that the D doesn't stand for darling! - is trying to get an AVO on me, yes that's right - ME! The judge basically laughed at him but 'has to go through due course and hear the matter out'. So we are back again in August. A REAL waste of time on every bodies behalf.

Right now I have so much support around me, it really feels great. Even having my bloggy friends leave words of support feels great. Finally I have reached out and asked for help with the local agencies and we are getting somewhere. There are also quite a few people, locals, that have come out of the woodwork with offers of help. Considering this is (D)ExP's home town, that says a lot!

I will admit I am scared. Not scared of our soon to be new life, that I am really looking to, but scared of how things will pan out with all this mess. What fight do I have ahead of me?! Is a fight even going to be needed?! Who knows. (D)ExP is so unpredictable.

Tomorrow I have absolutely no plans, and that feels great. I am looking forward to spending the day tidying up and just going nowhere. Just spending the day with the kids.

Tonight - well I'm going to get these children dinner, a bath and tuck them in bed safe and sound for tomorrow is another day. I am going to do the dishes and fold the washing that I did get hung out. I also need to start sorting things out and begin thinking about packing things up! A daunting task.

So thank you to everyone for their support. Back to life now....

Welcome to our new blog

I felt it was time for a change.

I am no longer able to find time to craft.

Although I am definitely NOT saying I never will! I would love to find the time again and hopefully in the future I will but at this point in time it is just not an option.

With Zach's cerebral palsy and a few issues we are having with Anna's eyes I feel a blog that could be better put to use as more of our day to day journal of where we have been and where we are going.

Life at the moment is just so hectic.

For example; on Monday we travelled 2 hours to Bega, Tuesday we travelled 1.5 hours to Cooma, today I had a meeting at the preschool that took 4 hours and tomorrow I need to be in Bombala. I REALLY hoping that Friday I-CAN-STAY-HOME!!

My house is feeling unloved and really if I don't get to it, it will be unclean too! Ahhhhh!

Being totally open and honest, this is where we stand today:

Washing has piled up and today I nearly had a nervous break down. I'm telling you I really felt like that! By the time I got the three little ones into bed I just wanted to curl up in a corner and cry - I didn't actually do it but I'm sure it would have been VERY beneficial!

Tonight my children had sandwiches for dinner and went to bed without a bath - again Ahhhh!

I did not do the dishes tonight and don't plan to - they won't go anywhere and will still be there in the morning.

I have a load of washing that I put on to wash before I went out this morning that is still in the machine and will not get hung out until the morning - its so cold out there!!

Lastly tonight, I am soon to be - well really I am already! - a single mummy to 4. Over the next few days I will be moving. Out on my own, mixed emotions but it is definitely the best move for the children and myself.

So that's it in short for now. I hope my old readers will join me over here but would happily welcome anyone new!

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P.S Please bear with me as I style my blog too! ; ) I am also organising an update post and also a bit of history thrown in there too.